I know you didn’t set out to have an affair
I know you were in pain before you committed this sin
I know the pain from before is still there, and it’s now compounded with more heartache, shame, sorrow, guilt, intense conflict, loneliness, hopelessness, disgust and judgement
I know what it’s like to be truly sorry and no one believes you
I know it’s hard to forgive yourself
I know others question your sincerity
I know you want so badly to turn back time
I know you feel ugly and wretched
I know what it feels like to want to peel your skin off as if it will somehow remove the grotesque feeling of being an adulterer.
I know you feel like an outcast
I know you want to just go back to one of those moments when you should have just ran!
I know the future is so dark
I know all seems hopeless
I know you just want the pain to stop
I know you want to call him…(please don’t)
I know you feel desperately alone
I know it doesn’t seem like it will ever be better
I know the thoughts about ending your life
I know the flashbacks are gut-wrenching
I know what it’s like to wake up in the middle of the night hoping it was all just a nightmare, only to find out it actually happened.
In horror, I too have said “WHAT DID I DO?!!!!
I know this is not who you are
I know you’ve been accused of more sin than what you committed
I know what it’s like to be the topic of gossip
I know untruths are being spread about you
I know trying to straighten out the facts makes it worse
I know you are being looked at with disdain
I know how it feels to have people ‘turn white’ at the sight of you which makes you feel like some monster
I know what it’s like to lose close friends
I know going backwards is so much easier than going forward
I know you’ve lost a lot!
I know how badly Satan wants to keep you down
I know it’s going to get worse before it gets better
I know you want something good to come out of this
I know you want to fix it somehow
I know what it feels like to be shunned
I know that the church should be the most helpful, but it can be the most hostile
I know that the days will get less heavy
I know God has a purpose for your failure and pain
I know with His strength you WILL get through
I know it can feel God has left you
I know it can feel like God isn’t listening as you are crying out to Him
I know He is always with you and He always hears your words
I know He is already working in your circumstances
I know God loves you so much and He thinks you are beautiful, a treasure, and He delights in YOU!